Letter from Mama, written April 10, 2023
Theodore Roan Anderson, my sweet, sweet boy. I have been meaning to write you a letter for so long, but to be honest, the thought of doing so overwhelms me a little bit, so I procrastinate. I am not usually one who struggles to put things into words, but when it comes to you, my sweet Theodore, I find myself struggling to find the right words to adequately communicate just how special you are. Because truly, brother bear, you are something special. When you were a baby I would tell you that all of the time, but I didn’t know then just how much those words would prove to be true. There is something about you that causes anyone who meets you to feel all warm and fuzzy inside– you have an effect on us that I simply can’t put into words.
But I reckon it’s time that I at least try. 🙂
You have me completely wrapped around your little finger, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Your sweet little dimples, your shining eyes. It’s impossible to look at your smile and not return one.
You are so considerate and thoughtful. You check on us when we get hurt, always asking “are you okay?” While at the pool this week I would go under water for a few seconds and each time I came up you would look at me with wide-eyed concern asking “are you okay?” If I trip over something on the floor, you will pick it up without being asked to, often returning the item to where it belongs. You show genuine concern when someone is in pain and it blesses me every time.
You are such a good communicator. You started talking right before you turned two, and we were all SO surprised by how quickly you took off! Full sentences and conversations at two. It blew our minds then and still does today. The way you speak is so unique to you. You often say things that leave your daddy and me looking at one another like.. where did he get that from?! One thing we love is how proper you are in your speech. We will ask you a question where a simple “yes” or “no” will do, but instead you answer with “yes I did” or “no I do not.” Something about it stands out to us and reminds us that you are your own person, created by the Lord uniquely to be YOU.
Sometimes you call me Mama, sometimes you call me Mommy. And sometimes you call me Mumsie.
I love how passionate you are about the way things should be– you definitely get that from your momma. 🙂 You know where things belong and you are adamant that they go there. You will often find something out of place and without being asked, return it to the correct place while declaring “deeese don’t belong!”
Oftentimes if we do something for you, you will un-do it so that you can re-do it yourself. You are very determined to do whatever you can on your own.
Before you even turned two you were fully dressing yourself. I love watching you run around with a shirt on backwards, the sure sign that you got to do it on your own.
There was a period of time that you would whisper things so loudly and passionately. You would often just say out loud “Daddy/Mommy?” and when we said “yeah” you would simply reply “hi.” It was adorable.
You went through a phase of coming out of the bedroom at nighttime, holding your diaper in hand. “I take my diaper off!” you would proclaim. “Why did you take your diaper off?” “CUZ!”
You are so funny. Legitimately funny. You make us laugh constantly. I especially love it when you make your sister laugh. You have a way of making her laugh that is unique to you two. I love it. And I love you two– Hazel + Theodore. You two love each other so well. You’re best buds. And even though you get at each other more these days, you are thick as thieves. You play so well together, and care so well for one another. Mostly. 🙂
Your curiosity is insatiable. You must get into everything. But you do so with such innocence. So it’s hard to be too upset about it. Although I do feel like I’m being driven mad over it at times. I simply can’t keep up! You certainly keep us on our toes.
You are very sensitive, and it’s really sweet. Your heart is tender, and I know exactly where you got that from too. 🙂 You have sucked your thumb since you were a couple of weeks old. It’s your comfort. Often times I will look over and see you sucking your thumb and rubbing your ear, soothing yourself like you have always done. It’s an endearing little quirk about you that I honestly love.
Each night during special time you are quick to be the first one to ask “what’s your favorite thing?” I tell you my favorite part of the day and then ask you yours. 95% of the time you respond “going to the pool” or “sledding.” I then remind you that you didn’t do either of those today, but alas, you are convinced. Apparently those few memories were some fond ones.
You make this particular face with your eyebrows furrowed and it cracks me up every time. Your personality is so big, and it comes out in these tiny little ways. You walk with a little swag that people constantly comment on. My favorite is when you stick your little hands in your pant pockets and walk around confidently like the little man you are becoming.
At bedtime you and Hazel take turns picking a hymn from your hymnal. Without fail, when it’s your turn to pick, you pick Zacchaeus. You then climb up into the rocking chair and wait for Daddy to sing the “Zacchaeus, you come down from there” part, which is your cue to jump down from the chair. I find it adorable how you so intentionally search for a hymn, when we all know which one you are going to pick.
On that note, you’ve recently started praying at night during our bedtime routine. You kneel down, stick your face in the bed, and begin with “Father, thank you for this day…” It’s how we all start, but of course there’s just something about the way you pray that is absolutely adorable. It’s probably the way you follow it up with “thank you for the beets.” You do love your beets. We can’t hear 90% of what you say since you’re all muffled with your face in the bedding, but it’s adorable, none the less.
We’ve been in Orlando this last week, spending nearly all of our awake time at the pool. You’re generally a daddy’s boy, but since he hasn’t been around this week, you’ve been a Mama’s boy, and I have loved every second of it. In the pool, you wanted Mama nearly all of the time. We had the most special time together. So much laugher, so much fun, so many sweet snuggles. One thing I don’t want to forget is the way you would randomly start speaking out loud biblical truths about Jesus. Just random little things that seemed to come out of nowhere. Sometimes it would be lines from a song, but others it would just be random statements of Truth. It blessed my heart immensely. It makes me think of what Jesus said– “Out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks.” Thank the Lord, that these are the treasures flowing out of your heart.
Looking back at some of my notes from a year ago, I loved the way you would lower your forehead down for me to kiss when I would ask you for a kiss. And the way you would walk with your hands clasped behind your back, like a little old man, observing everything as you went. You don’t do either of those so much anymore, yet I can picture it like it was yesterday.
I can’t believe you are two. But at the same time, I can’t believe you are only two. I remember when you turned two I realized that we had been treating you like you were two for quite a while. I guess that’s how it goes when you have a sibling so close in age.
You are completely obsessed with the neighbor boy that lives behind us. He’s around 8, and he rides a dirt-bike up and down our driveway, so it’s the “thing” these days. You pretend to be him, riding your bike (“dirt-bike”) around the house, saying I’m Mason! The other day you had your helmet strap over your mouth and I fixed it for you, thinking it was stuck. You quickly put it back and said, “I’m Mason!” I realized you were wearing it that way to mimic his dirt-bike helmet that covers his mouth. I look forward to watching you grow and learning about all of the things that get you excited and capture your interest.
Speaking of, you and your sister have developed a new interest in tree climbing. I will often find you outside climbing the front tree, up much higher than I feel comfortable with, if I’m being honest. You are learning your boundaries and figuring things out as you go– it truly is such a joy to watch you grow.
A while ago we asked you what nickname you liked best— Theo, Teo, Teddy. We like to call you Theodore, but since so many people keep calling you Theo and we weren’t keen on that nickname, we decided it was time to mention the potential nicknames to you and get your thoughts. You said you liked Teddy, but that was about as far as it went. Until recently when out of nowhere you declared that you want to be called Teddy. And since then you have corrected me multiple times when I introduce you to someone as Theodore. “I’M TEDDY!” You even went so far as to complain to me recently that “Hazel called me Theodore and I want to be called Teddy!” I keep calling you Theodore because, well… that’s your name. But you keep correcting me.. “I’m Teddy.” The ironic thing is, I named you Theodore thinking that we would call you Teddy. But I never started it so you’ve just always been my Theodore.
That being said, if there has to be a nickname, I can’t think of a better one to capture the essence of my sweet, sweet boy.
Our beloved Teddy.
We love you.
Letter from Daddy, written February 4, 2023
Happy 2nd Birthday Theodore
I love you so much my boy! You have a spirit that is so amazing I find words hard to find to describe. You are a joy! And you bring it into our family on a regular basis. I am right now picturing your giant smile which reveals your two dimples and adorable cheeks that accent your twinkling eyes.
It comes out many times with many people and for many different reasons, but it comes out most with mommy and especially Hazel. You are an amazing brother! You are up for anything and many times are the one that helps everyone be brave. You have changed the vocabulary of our home. Vroom-da-do will now be a rallying cry of our family, replacing ‘let’s go.”
Since you were little you have been so interested in how things work. I turn around and see you watching and understanding what you are seeing, and I know I need to be prepared for you to try what I just did in the near future.
It has been so fun watching you play in many different environments: the open floor plan of our house where you love to run, be chased, and ride ridiculously fast on your car or bike; the woods where you wanted to go by yourself from the moment you could get down the front steps on your own; the park where you love to go from car to car; the bathtub where you hold your own and bring joy to your sister.
You amaze us with your full sentences and the way you know what is being said and have a reply for pretty much any situation. We did not expect you to speak so early, but you followed in the steps of your sister and the way you communicate makes us think you are both a year older than you are. It is good we are celebrating your 2nd birthday so that we can remind ourselves that you are not 3.
My son I pray for you so often and my prayer and blessing for you this year is that your trust in God’s goodness and love will grow in you and keep you bravely and securely exploring the world you have been born into, and that your mother and I are able to set aside our desire for control and be channels of God’s love to you. You are truly a gift from God a gift that reminds us of His goodness and kindness and care for each person. We celebrate and thank God for you and bless you and your new year of growth, exploration, and love!